Rocky place

I'm not gonna sit here and pretend like l got my shit together because l don't. Working in progress is a bit of an understatement when describing me. l have been closed off for God knows how long now, l work hard to push away people who so much as try to show me the slightest bit of love and compassion for fear that if l let them in, they are eventually gonna leave like everyone else essentially taking a part of me with them. The theory behind this is that if l keep letting people take away parts of me when they leave, there isn't going to be much left when all is said and done. I feel things entirely way too hard or not at all, there is no middle ground with me and i have often hurt people cause of this.

Despite all these overwhelming flaws, sometimes, when its right, i can be nauseatingly sweet when l really care. I would move heaven and earth to see the ones l love smile,even though l have been crushed a million times. I still hold out hope that maybe someday, if l'm lucky, someone every bit as messed up will walk into my life and decide to stay and maybe , just maybe we can work on fixing each other.......